2011-08-26
♥ A numbness...
Because of my excitement about finally getting a job at a great company, I forgot to mention something. That same day, we experienced the aftershock of the earthquake that occurred in Virginia. Since I didn't know about that, I was totally in shock and was scared that something was happening in NYC or my building. But later I found out about it and was totally psyched. I mean, I'm still a little scared because we're not like Japan. Japan's building are made for earthquakes; ours aren't. So if there was an earthquake, we die. >.<
After that, I found out that Hurricane Irene is coming. I'm thinking, "Great. This is what we get for destroying Mother Nature." But I hope it isn't as bad as the news are making it out to be. I'm scared that the strong winds are going to blow my building down. >.> Not so much the flood because I live on the freaking 10th floor. Other than the fear of my building being blown down, I'm totally psyched about the hurricane. :) I'm insane, right? But all my life living in NYC, I never experienced something like this.
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So yes, here's another update about my feelings for Leyda. Honestly, my feelings are going up and down. There are times when I think that I'm over him and then, they come back. Right now, they're on an up. He talks to me about stock stuff and even though I don't know a thing about them, I still go along with the conversation because I like talking to him. :) But then, on Vic's fb, I saw she made a comment to Leyda's comment and...You know, I keep forgetting that he has a gf and it just hit me then. I don't know why it didn't hit me when I mentioned her to Vic before on the phone. Then as I was talking to Leyda, it hit me even harder.
The thing is I wanted to invite him to the celebration lunch/dinner that I'm going to have in two weeks...but I'm not sure if I should. I asked him if he was busy then but since he didn't really ask why I asked, I just kept to myself. Maybe it'll give me more time to think about it. I mean, even if he did come, so what? We barely spoke the last time I saw him. What's going to change this time? And it's not like his feelings about me are going to change. From what I heard, he was a bit freaked(?) when he found out that I liked him back then. >.> But I do want him there because I want to see him. Plus, who knows when I'll see him again, right? Since I'll be starting work and school, I won't have time to hang out much. Work 5 days a week and school on both weekends. No time to rest.
I'm just afraid that seeing him will make the realization of not being able to have him more clear. Well, maybe it's a good thing then. I mean, I should've realized it. In fact, I do. I guess what I mean is that if I do see him, maybe I'll end up liking him more and feeling more pain. But like I said, I won't be able to hang out much. So should I or should I not?
That's all. I'm just waiting for the Hurricane Irene storm (and the one in my heart) to come and pass.
After that, I found out that Hurricane Irene is coming. I'm thinking, "Great. This is what we get for destroying Mother Nature." But I hope it isn't as bad as the news are making it out to be. I'm scared that the strong winds are going to blow my building down. >.> Not so much the flood because I live on the freaking 10th floor. Other than the fear of my building being blown down, I'm totally psyched about the hurricane. :) I'm insane, right? But all my life living in NYC, I never experienced something like this.
READ MORE...--->
So yes, here's another update about my feelings for Leyda. Honestly, my feelings are going up and down. There are times when I think that I'm over him and then, they come back. Right now, they're on an up. He talks to me about stock stuff and even though I don't know a thing about them, I still go along with the conversation because I like talking to him. :) But then, on Vic's fb, I saw she made a comment to Leyda's comment and...You know, I keep forgetting that he has a gf and it just hit me then. I don't know why it didn't hit me when I mentioned her to Vic before on the phone. Then as I was talking to Leyda, it hit me even harder.
The thing is I wanted to invite him to the celebration lunch/dinner that I'm going to have in two weeks...but I'm not sure if I should. I asked him if he was busy then but since he didn't really ask why I asked, I just kept to myself. Maybe it'll give me more time to think about it. I mean, even if he did come, so what? We barely spoke the last time I saw him. What's going to change this time? And it's not like his feelings about me are going to change. From what I heard, he was a bit freaked(?) when he found out that I liked him back then. >.> But I do want him there because I want to see him. Plus, who knows when I'll see him again, right? Since I'll be starting work and school, I won't have time to hang out much. Work 5 days a week and school on both weekends. No time to rest.
I'm just afraid that seeing him will make the realization of not being able to have him more clear. Well, maybe it's a good thing then. I mean, I should've realized it. In fact, I do. I guess what I mean is that if I do see him, maybe I'll end up liking him more and feeling more pain. But like I said, I won't be able to hang out much. So should I or should I not?
That's all. I'm just waiting for the Hurricane Irene storm (and the one in my heart) to come and pass.
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