2011-08-11
♥ [UPDATED] Becoming a college student...again
But for now...
How can seeing someone like your fb status make you smile so much? I must be a fool in----. :D
UPDATE#1
So I was supposed to update with either good news or bad news but unfortunately, I'm going to have to do that tomorrow.
Anyway, my Zoya order came in and I'm loving the colors I bought.
How can seeing someone like your fb status make you smile so much? I must be a fool in----. :D
UPDATE#1
So I was supposed to update with either good news or bad news but unfortunately, I'm going to have to do that tomorrow.
Anyway, my Zoya order came in and I'm loving the colors I bought.
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| (left to right) Jana, Lily, Pandora |
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| Wearing Pandora right now! |
So that's that. Pandora look so lovely and it matches well with my complexion. It's not a color that will attract attention so I like it a lot. I can't wait to try out Jana. If it wasn't for my interview tomorrow, I would've worn it! The sad thing though is that I accidentally shook Pandora before I used it so I have bubbles inside my nail polish. I really hate that because that always happens to me. :(
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A few nights ago, I had a dream about Leyda. All I could remember was that I was learning how to saw or something. I don't know. Leyda took off his shirt and sawed something. Really, I have no idea where the sawing part came from but I'm not surprised since I have weird dreams all the time. But the thing is I've never seen Leyda without a shirt on so having a dream about it is...weird. He did have a nice body though. :)
Also, I now believe I'm a fool. I mean, I've known that for a long time. Yesterday, before I shut down my computer, I saw that he liked my status about signing up for paralegal courses (oops! forgot to mention that first!) and I just smiled. Like a dork. Gosh, I'm such a big fool. It's been almost 2 months. Usually, I will stop liking a guy fast because I don't see him much but I haven't seen the guy these past two months except for that one day and he brought along his gf so that should stop my feelings! But I still like him.
Sigh. Oh well.
On Wednesday, I went to Queens College to pay my fees for their paralegal program. Yes! I signed up for paralegal courses! Why did I decide to do that? Just in case my interview doesn't go well. It's more like a back up and I've always wondered about paralegals. Lolz. Since I don't have what it takes to be a lawyer, I'd rather just work as a paralegal. They get paid a good amount. It's no wonder too since I saw some of the things I'm going to have to study. Classes start Sept 17. I'm taking both weekend classes. So if I get a job M-F, I will be out every single damn day. Hurray...well, that's a good reason to buy a month's card though.
One thing I was thinking about one night was about giving up on love. If it can lead to a better life for me (career-wise), I'll be willing to give it up. Why? Because I forgot what it feels to love. I don't know what it is anymore and I don't want to wait any longer for it to come. I've had many failed crushes and relationships, it's a bit disheartening. When I thought about giving up love though, I started to cry. It is a bit sad. But since I don't know if it will lead to a better life, why give up, you know? But I am getting tired. Especially since I started liking Leyda. I mean, I'm ok with it but sometimes when I think about it I get sad. I'm okay but it's hard.
No matter what though. I have to do well tomorrow and for my paralegal classes. In a way, Leyda was part of the reason why I wanted to take those classes. He has such big ambitions and I guess that got to me. I want to dream big too. But the biggest I can go for now is getting a good job at MSK and completing my paralegal courses. I can go bigger but it's no use since it's taken. :) I think you should know what that means. I don't ever want to be the third wheel...or whatever they're called. Of course when you like someone, you want to be with them too. But I haven't gone crazy with that.
READ MORE...--->
A few nights ago, I had a dream about Leyda. All I could remember was that I was learning how to saw or something. I don't know. Leyda took off his shirt and sawed something. Really, I have no idea where the sawing part came from but I'm not surprised since I have weird dreams all the time. But the thing is I've never seen Leyda without a shirt on so having a dream about it is...weird. He did have a nice body though. :)
Also, I now believe I'm a fool. I mean, I've known that for a long time. Yesterday, before I shut down my computer, I saw that he liked my status about signing up for paralegal courses (oops! forgot to mention that first!) and I just smiled. Like a dork. Gosh, I'm such a big fool. It's been almost 2 months. Usually, I will stop liking a guy fast because I don't see him much but I haven't seen the guy these past two months except for that one day and he brought along his gf so that should stop my feelings! But I still like him.
Sigh. Oh well.
On Wednesday, I went to Queens College to pay my fees for their paralegal program. Yes! I signed up for paralegal courses! Why did I decide to do that? Just in case my interview doesn't go well. It's more like a back up and I've always wondered about paralegals. Lolz. Since I don't have what it takes to be a lawyer, I'd rather just work as a paralegal. They get paid a good amount. It's no wonder too since I saw some of the things I'm going to have to study. Classes start Sept 17. I'm taking both weekend classes. So if I get a job M-F, I will be out every single damn day. Hurray...well, that's a good reason to buy a month's card though.
One thing I was thinking about one night was about giving up on love. If it can lead to a better life for me (career-wise), I'll be willing to give it up. Why? Because I forgot what it feels to love. I don't know what it is anymore and I don't want to wait any longer for it to come. I've had many failed crushes and relationships, it's a bit disheartening. When I thought about giving up love though, I started to cry. It is a bit sad. But since I don't know if it will lead to a better life, why give up, you know? But I am getting tired. Especially since I started liking Leyda. I mean, I'm ok with it but sometimes when I think about it I get sad. I'm okay but it's hard.
No matter what though. I have to do well tomorrow and for my paralegal classes. In a way, Leyda was part of the reason why I wanted to take those classes. He has such big ambitions and I guess that got to me. I want to dream big too. But the biggest I can go for now is getting a good job at MSK and completing my paralegal courses. I can go bigger but it's no use since it's taken. :) I think you should know what that means. I don't ever want to be the third wheel...or whatever they're called. Of course when you like someone, you want to be with them too. But I haven't gone crazy with that.
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