2011-09-17
♥ First week complete!
So I have completed my first week of work and a day of classes. On Weds, I went in expecting an orientation but instead, I was shown to my desk, get familiar with the area, and sign up for whatever password and accounts I needed to. I was quite happy to have a desk for own and a desktop with not 1 but 2 monitors! Yay! I met my co-workers and the one I'll be working with. My supervisor wasn't available that day so I was on my own with MSK's training. What it is is basically lots of computer-based training where I read policies regarding patient information, research data, and other work-related policies. I also learned at the end of the day that I basically had a 1-hr break, separated into a 15-min break in the morning, 30-min break for lunch, and a 15-min break for the afternoon. However, I can just combine all those into a 1-hr lunch break. Unfortunately, I have no one to have lunch with around my area so no point in doing so.
On Thurs, I continued my training, packing my brain with info. My supervisor came in the afternoon and gave me the orientation and a short training session. He was really nice and cool about everything, but...how should I say this...He gave me additional pressure to do well in my position. Usually, I'm not good with packing that much info into my brain but I guess I'll have to find a method because from here til the end of the year, I have to show an exceptional performance. That's a whole lot of stress for me because I seriously want to do well in my position. I really love the benefits that MSK gives and the position is where all my foundation will be built so that I can do well later on in the future should I change position.
On Friday, it was pretty much the same pattern. My supervisor gave me a longer training session and this time, my head was about to explode. I'll explain that. Earlier, I was doing a ton of MSK training. One of them was like an online course. There was so much material to read and after each section, I will have to take a short quiz. So imagine me reading one section, taking the quiz, reading another section, and taking the quiz for that. That's a whole lot of info to read. As time passes, I can't remember much from the current section I'm reading to answer the quiz questions accurately. Luckily, the quizzes kept getting shorter. I'm still not even halfway done with that and I have another online course type of training to do. T.T Then right after, without any break, I had that training session with my supervisor (sv). Honestly, I couldn't keep up with him because my head was about to explode at that point. I'm sure if I had a little break before I went into the training session, I may have done better. In fact, if I didn't need to do those trainings, I would have done better.
Today was my first day of paralegal classes...I really wasn't happy. Not because it wasn't what I was expecting but rather...the classmates. Not all of them, of course. But there was this woman who was SUPER annoying. These were classes, not a social gathering, and she kept bringing her own personal experiences that were not relevant into the classroom. I was sitting in my seat thinking, "Who the fuck cares about your life?" There were too many instances of her annoyance but my brain is in a muddy mood so I can't even remember those exact instances. The professor, who taught both classes today, was an okay professor. He seemed like he knew his material and I'm pretty sure he's a great professor. Unfortunately, he cracks really lame jokes. I did laugh a bit at a few but they were mostly like "Am...I...supposed..to...laugh?" It's like wtf moment. I'm the type of person who laughs easily and I laugh for most jokes told by my friend and on TV. The fact that I didn't laugh for most of his jokes meant it was seriously not cool or funny. The fact that there was a small audience laughing at those jokes most of the time he told them tells me that they have a lame sense of humor. So not a good day. I wasn't tired enough not to get the jokes because I did get them...they just weren't funny.
Oh and another anecdote from today. So my professor didn't know that there was only one class starting tomorrow, because the morning class is going to start next Sunday. So he was surprised and asked the class why that was so and one girl went and said, "Maybe because the class ends later than the others?" How retarded is she? Dude, class ends later because the class started later. He's asking for the cause of the effect, you bimbo. If class starting later is the cause for the class ending later, then what's the cause of the class starting later? That's what the professor was asking for! I'm not saying that all my classmates were annoying or stupid but it's enough when the ones that speak the most in class ARE the annoying and/or senseless ones.
So I decided to just withdraw from the program. Actually I was planning on just withdrawing from the Sunday ones but thinking it over, I decided to just withdraw from the whole program instead. The reasons are: 1. I'm already so tired as it is from working so I have a much harder time focusing in two boring classes and I lack energy to think. Waking up at 7 15am every morning is already hard enough, but 6am?! I thought I was in hell when I woke; 2. since I just started working, I really want to focus on work and the training so I don't get fired. To do that, I can't be distracted by thoughts such as, "OMG, I forgot to study last night" or "I have a paper to write" or "EXAM!!!" I can't take that much stress!; and 3. although I had interest in paralegal, it seems it wasn't as strong as my interest in science so I will continue on my scientific path instead. I lost interest in paralegal as soon as I started working. So I will write an email and a fax to withdraw. I'll have to call them to make sure they receive it coz they don't reply fast enough. Dumb people. -.-"
Since I had a pretty good week despite my brain overwhelmed with facts, I will not discuss my problems with Fei and Victor. I sure have a lot of things to say about them but instead of ruining this happy entry with negative comments about their personalities and my own, I shall end it here! Good night~ Peace!...to the world~
Today was my first day of paralegal classes...I really wasn't happy. Not because it wasn't what I was expecting but rather...the classmates. Not all of them, of course. But there was this woman who was SUPER annoying. These were classes, not a social gathering, and she kept bringing her own personal experiences that were not relevant into the classroom. I was sitting in my seat thinking, "Who the fuck cares about your life?" There were too many instances of her annoyance but my brain is in a muddy mood so I can't even remember those exact instances. The professor, who taught both classes today, was an okay professor. He seemed like he knew his material and I'm pretty sure he's a great professor. Unfortunately, he cracks really lame jokes. I did laugh a bit at a few but they were mostly like "Am...I...supposed..to...laugh?" It's like wtf moment. I'm the type of person who laughs easily and I laugh for most jokes told by my friend and on TV. The fact that I didn't laugh for most of his jokes meant it was seriously not cool or funny. The fact that there was a small audience laughing at those jokes most of the time he told them tells me that they have a lame sense of humor. So not a good day. I wasn't tired enough not to get the jokes because I did get them...they just weren't funny.
Oh and another anecdote from today. So my professor didn't know that there was only one class starting tomorrow, because the morning class is going to start next Sunday. So he was surprised and asked the class why that was so and one girl went and said, "Maybe because the class ends later than the others?" How retarded is she? Dude, class ends later because the class started later. He's asking for the cause of the effect, you bimbo. If class starting later is the cause for the class ending later, then what's the cause of the class starting later? That's what the professor was asking for! I'm not saying that all my classmates were annoying or stupid but it's enough when the ones that speak the most in class ARE the annoying and/or senseless ones.
So I decided to just withdraw from the program. Actually I was planning on just withdrawing from the Sunday ones but thinking it over, I decided to just withdraw from the whole program instead. The reasons are: 1. I'm already so tired as it is from working so I have a much harder time focusing in two boring classes and I lack energy to think. Waking up at 7 15am every morning is already hard enough, but 6am?! I thought I was in hell when I woke; 2. since I just started working, I really want to focus on work and the training so I don't get fired. To do that, I can't be distracted by thoughts such as, "OMG, I forgot to study last night" or "I have a paper to write" or "EXAM!!!" I can't take that much stress!; and 3. although I had interest in paralegal, it seems it wasn't as strong as my interest in science so I will continue on my scientific path instead. I lost interest in paralegal as soon as I started working. So I will write an email and a fax to withdraw. I'll have to call them to make sure they receive it coz they don't reply fast enough. Dumb people. -.-"
Since I had a pretty good week despite my brain overwhelmed with facts, I will not discuss my problems with Fei and Victor. I sure have a lot of things to say about them but instead of ruining this happy entry with negative comments about their personalities and my own, I shall end it here! Good night~ Peace!...to the world~
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