2011-12-31
♥ Goodbye 2011! Hello 2012!
Originally I wanted to write this before the new year but I only have 15 mins to write because I was watching "Tree with Deep Roots" and lost track of time.
2011 have been a life-changing year for me. I quit my job at that textile company because I couldn't stand the low wage and my boss (even though she's a good person). I didn't know what I was going to do so I ended up applying back to school for a master's in forensic psychology, trying to continue my dream. Then I got into a school and what happened after was the start of a new chapter of my life.
Even though I was rejected for the first position at MSK, I knew I couldn't continue through with the school thing. Thanks to my cousin, I woke up from what would have been a nightmare. I was depressed about the rejection but still, I went ahead and applied for several positions. I continued my best at those interviews. Then finally I received another call for another position at MSK and the rest...well, I've written about it. It's been more than 3 months since I started working and I'm still employed! Well, we'll have to see in March since that's when my probation ends. I think if I try hard enough, I can surpass the standards my sv has for me. I'm aiming high!
This year was also the year that guys came back into my life. I think it was about a week before my bday. I started talking to Leyda and I fell for him...again. I've been saying that I'll give up on him eventually but I still like him. But I'm not as crazy about it as I was. I also met Greg who came into my workplace a week or so after me and I thought he was cute. Now though, I don't have any feelings for him. He's really...ugh. Seeing how he works made my feelings go away. I like someone who actually works hard.
Ah! It's almost 12!! Alright. My very quick list of resolutions for 2012:
1. Exercise more and sign up for gym. I need to! For my body and health.
2. Treat my mom better.
That's...really all there is. I honestly had only those two. I'll try my best with them.
So the first half of 2011 I was lost but the later half, I started finding my path. I shall continue on finding my path and myself. So here's to a beautiful start of 2012. May we continue living at the end of 2012 and not die from some world catastrophe. =D
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
2011 have been a life-changing year for me. I quit my job at that textile company because I couldn't stand the low wage and my boss (even though she's a good person). I didn't know what I was going to do so I ended up applying back to school for a master's in forensic psychology, trying to continue my dream. Then I got into a school and what happened after was the start of a new chapter of my life.
Even though I was rejected for the first position at MSK, I knew I couldn't continue through with the school thing. Thanks to my cousin, I woke up from what would have been a nightmare. I was depressed about the rejection but still, I went ahead and applied for several positions. I continued my best at those interviews. Then finally I received another call for another position at MSK and the rest...well, I've written about it. It's been more than 3 months since I started working and I'm still employed! Well, we'll have to see in March since that's when my probation ends. I think if I try hard enough, I can surpass the standards my sv has for me. I'm aiming high!
This year was also the year that guys came back into my life. I think it was about a week before my bday. I started talking to Leyda and I fell for him...again. I've been saying that I'll give up on him eventually but I still like him. But I'm not as crazy about it as I was. I also met Greg who came into my workplace a week or so after me and I thought he was cute. Now though, I don't have any feelings for him. He's really...ugh. Seeing how he works made my feelings go away. I like someone who actually works hard.
Ah! It's almost 12!! Alright. My very quick list of resolutions for 2012:
1. Exercise more and sign up for gym. I need to! For my body and health.
2. Treat my mom better.
That's...really all there is. I honestly had only those two. I'll try my best with them.
So the first half of 2011 I was lost but the later half, I started finding my path. I shall continue on finding my path and myself. So here's to a beautiful start of 2012. May we continue living at the end of 2012 and not die from some world catastrophe. =D
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
23:57
2011-12-17
♥ 아...아파...
Wow, I just figured out the shortcuts to
switching keyboards. In the past, I would have to use my mouse to do it
which annoyed me greatly. So yay.
This past Monday was my 3rd month of employment and I'm halfway to finishing my probation. Yay...
This past week has been horrible for me because of this infection that I have around my wisdom tooth area. Normally it's not that bad and it usually lasts only a few days. But this time it was so bad that I kept waking up in the middle of the night because of the pain. So I went to the dentist yesterday and instead of just getting the prescription for antibiotics and painkillers, I had a surgery done...and it cost me almost $100 because my insurance only covered 80%. But it's better now though. I still can't chew but I have no more sore throat so I can swallow FOOD now. I've had trouble doing that since it would even be painful every time I swallowed my own saliva. So I'm on antibiotics and I just took one Vicodin tablet. That sent me to a drunken state. Almost couldn't make it out of the shower. I also felt nauseous but it may have been because I only had chicken noodle soup just before I took both pills. So I took a nap and by the time I woke up, I was feeling better.
My craving for real food is so much greater now than before and it's because I can't eat food. I can't wait til this whole terrible ordeal goes away. I will PIGG out!! ^@^ I'm waiting for Thursday to come because we're going to have a company dinner and Friday, we get to leave early. My sv is awesome for that. Other employees can leave at 4pm but he tells me that Vicki and I can leave at 3. I may or may not stay a little bit after just so I can catch up with my work since I left early yesterday. By the way, my dentist appointment was at 12 45 and like I said, I wasn't expecting the surgery so by the time I was finally able to leave the dentist, it was already 1 45 and then I had to get my prescriptions because I really needed that Vicodin. As with all meds, I had to wait so since I didn't eat much for breakfast, I went to the market close by and bought chicken noodle soup. That shit was hot! I had to wait 15 mins for it to cool down enough for me to gulp it down and that was a slow, painful process. By the time I was done, a total of 30 mins passed and I went to get my meds. I bought some chocolates first and then went to get them. I returned to my office around 2 30? By the time I got everything done, it was near 3pm and I left. So really, I took 3.5hrs off work. I feel bad and that's why I wanna make it up somehow but Vicki is very against me doing that because she thinks I work too hard but I'm a new employee and I'm still in probation so I do NOT wanna lose my position by getting lazy.
I'm pretty sure the last post I put up, I mention my budding love for Hot Chelle Rae. Well, they have a tour starting February and I bought my tickets to go see them in April in NYC. Chung was a nice friend to come with me. =) That's why I'm just going to pay for his ticket. I mean, he's going because I have no one else who's interested in going with me. We'll be surrounded by screaming teenyboppers. =.= I really hate them. I mean, they're mostly young girls who have squealing voices. Out of all people and age range that I don't like, teenyboppers are the ones I hate the most. Even when I was their age, I wasn't as crazy/insane as they are. They're mostly white but that's besides the point. I just hate that age range and gender. I...hate...them. -.- I just hope that my love for HCR and their music will override that. But I hate them. I really do.
I think that's all the update I have for now. I have stopped studying since I got my MacBook Pro so now I should go over what I wrote and continue? Or should I continue watching Lucky Star? It's like my 9th time watching that anime. =P I love it that much.
This past Monday was my 3rd month of employment and I'm halfway to finishing my probation. Yay...
This past week has been horrible for me because of this infection that I have around my wisdom tooth area. Normally it's not that bad and it usually lasts only a few days. But this time it was so bad that I kept waking up in the middle of the night because of the pain. So I went to the dentist yesterday and instead of just getting the prescription for antibiotics and painkillers, I had a surgery done...and it cost me almost $100 because my insurance only covered 80%. But it's better now though. I still can't chew but I have no more sore throat so I can swallow FOOD now. I've had trouble doing that since it would even be painful every time I swallowed my own saliva. So I'm on antibiotics and I just took one Vicodin tablet. That sent me to a drunken state. Almost couldn't make it out of the shower. I also felt nauseous but it may have been because I only had chicken noodle soup just before I took both pills. So I took a nap and by the time I woke up, I was feeling better.
My craving for real food is so much greater now than before and it's because I can't eat food. I can't wait til this whole terrible ordeal goes away. I will PIGG out!! ^@^ I'm waiting for Thursday to come because we're going to have a company dinner and Friday, we get to leave early. My sv is awesome for that. Other employees can leave at 4pm but he tells me that Vicki and I can leave at 3. I may or may not stay a little bit after just so I can catch up with my work since I left early yesterday. By the way, my dentist appointment was at 12 45 and like I said, I wasn't expecting the surgery so by the time I was finally able to leave the dentist, it was already 1 45 and then I had to get my prescriptions because I really needed that Vicodin. As with all meds, I had to wait so since I didn't eat much for breakfast, I went to the market close by and bought chicken noodle soup. That shit was hot! I had to wait 15 mins for it to cool down enough for me to gulp it down and that was a slow, painful process. By the time I was done, a total of 30 mins passed and I went to get my meds. I bought some chocolates first and then went to get them. I returned to my office around 2 30? By the time I got everything done, it was near 3pm and I left. So really, I took 3.5hrs off work. I feel bad and that's why I wanna make it up somehow but Vicki is very against me doing that because she thinks I work too hard but I'm a new employee and I'm still in probation so I do NOT wanna lose my position by getting lazy.
I'm pretty sure the last post I put up, I mention my budding love for Hot Chelle Rae. Well, they have a tour starting February and I bought my tickets to go see them in April in NYC. Chung was a nice friend to come with me. =) That's why I'm just going to pay for his ticket. I mean, he's going because I have no one else who's interested in going with me. We'll be surrounded by screaming teenyboppers. =.= I really hate them. I mean, they're mostly young girls who have squealing voices. Out of all people and age range that I don't like, teenyboppers are the ones I hate the most. Even when I was their age, I wasn't as crazy/insane as they are. They're mostly white but that's besides the point. I just hate that age range and gender. I...hate...them. -.- I just hope that my love for HCR and their music will override that. But I hate them. I really do.
I think that's all the update I have for now. I have stopped studying since I got my MacBook Pro so now I should go over what I wrote and continue? Or should I continue watching Lucky Star? It's like my 9th time watching that anime. =P I love it that much.
14:12
2011-12-04
♥ Where the hell's my hot water?
It's December already and I'm almost reaching 3 months. I feel like time has been slow these past few months. That may be because I'm waiting for my 6-month probation to come to an end. I still like the work that I do but I want to start using my vacation days. Like at least take a day off. That sounds bad doesn't it? Since I'm a new employee, I really shouldn't think about taking a rest but rather work harder so that I can still have this position at the end of my probation. All this worrying is inherited from my mother. -.-"
I ate with Chung and Vic yesterday and I didn't like my dish. It had more cheese than I thought. We went to eat Italian. I like the dish Vic got which had tomato sauce in it instead. I should NEVER order anything with cheese in it. EVER. Afterwards, we went to Just Sweet and I order my favorite: honey dew milk green tea with tapioca. BUBBLE TEA!!! =D I also had a really hard time choosing between toast with condensed milk and 팥빙수. I ended up getting the toast because it was cold and eating the 팥빙수 would have made it worse. It was a good thing I did that too because when we left, I was freezing. I love my bubble tea cold. Well, except if I order a plain milk black tea, then I'm okay with both. =)
The whole time though I felt awkward with Vic but that's because of the argument we had months ago. We haven't spoken to each other since then and out of the blue, I asked him to come eat dinner. It was even more awkward going home together. I couldn't find things to talk about but thankfully, he did and we went home talking most of the time. Since his apartment is closer to St. Marks than my place, we separated and I walked home alone. That walk is always the loneliest. It gives me a lot of time to think and thinking isn't the best thing for me; I tend to over think things and it just makes me sad. But I'm glad we did get to hang out. Next Saturday, Chung and I plan on going to the movies. I chose New Year's Eve randomly because it has a lot of A-list stars so hopefully, it won't be bad.
I recently got into Hot Chelle Rae. It was really fast too. What happened was I was watching this Ellen (Degeneres) clip with these two little girls at the AMA, interviewing artists and I saw Hot Chelle Rae. Actually, I just noticed Ryan but the others were there. Then I found out the band's name and that's how I got into them. Their music is good. Nowadays, I don't listen to American music...actually, I haven't listened to it for years. I still like Simple Plan and AAR. Oh and Linkin Park. How can I forget them? =P But I listened to HCR and I loved their songs right away. The lyrics are 대박! But my favorite song is "I Like to Dance". It's a really fun song. =) So yeah. I get into bands because I see some cute guy and then I end up really liking their songs.
Tomorrow, Vicki won't be here and I'm...okay with that. I think Greg may be there. I wouldn't know. I realized that Greg doesn't have...motivation. Or is it ambition? Or is it both? I like guys who have ambition, not just trying to live. Right now, I'm determined to go back to school and get my Master's and move on from there. So although it may seem like I don't have any, I do have some ambition. Because of that, my feelings for Greg are just...poof! He's still good-looking but the person himself is what I look at the most. He's just living life and not for something so it takes all the attraction away.
Then again, I can't say something like that and feel better about myself. I don't feel good about myself and I'm not better than everyone. Still, I'm human and I have things I look for in a guy.
Oh yeah. I was thinking about writing a story again. Honestly, I always start one and NEVER finish it because I always have the beginning and end but never the middle. So the writing process always comes to a halt prematurely because of my lack of ideas. That's probably what's gonna happen this time too but I have an idea and I need to express it somewhere.
Ah. Before I leave, the entry title refers to my current situation. My apartment (and I'm pretty sure it's my whole building) doesn't have hot water. This is the 3rd time in a short span of time. I think it's probably 2 months or less. But today, there has been no hot water the WHOLE day. This isn't the first time of course but it hasn't been happening this frequently. There's no notice too. So my whole day today has been WTF?! I'm about to explode in anger. I mean, sure we don't pay a lot in rent but that mean we shouldn't have hot water? To NYCHA: FUCK YOU! That's how pissed off I am. I really have been doing my best to not curse but it only happens when I'm really mad...and I'm pretty mad right now. I need to shower because I have work tomorrow! T_T Fucking people...
Ah, that gives me more reason to hate people. I really have a low opinion of people. Totally off topic but I have to say it. Every day for work, I work on Caisis and do all my data entry there. I'm not the only person to use it. There are other people who use it and the ones that work on the same patients as I do are IDIOTS. It clearly says "Date of Report" and we get reports that have that date. But what do those idiots put in? The date of the procedure! Are they blind or do they not know how to read? It has to be one of them because they NEVER put in the actual date of report even though it clearly says date of report! Yeah, I may be anal about these things but it's better to be that than a careless bitch who complains about the work I do. I mean, who is she/he to say I don't write in something when they enter wrong info in themselves? UGH!!!!
So I will return to work tomorrow and hopefully get more work done or else Kevin (my sv) will say something about that. >.> Joy....
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