2011-12-04

I ate with Chung and Vic yesterday and I didn't like my dish. It had more cheese than I thought. We went to eat Italian. I like the dish Vic got which had tomato sauce in it instead. I should NEVER order anything with cheese in it. EVER. Afterwards, we went to Just Sweet and I order my favorite: honey dew milk green tea with tapioca. BUBBLE TEA!!! =D I also had a really hard time choosing between toast with condensed milk and 팥빙수. I ended up getting the toast because it was cold and eating the 팥빙수 would have made it worse. It was a good thing I did that too because when we left, I was freezing. I love my bubble tea cold. Well, except if I order a plain milk black tea, then I'm okay with both. =)

The whole time though I felt awkward with Vic but that's because of the argument we had months ago. We haven't spoken to each other since then and out of the blue, I asked him to come eat dinner. It was even more awkward going home together. I couldn't find things to talk about but thankfully, he did and we went home talking most of the time. Since his apartment is closer to St. Marks than my place, we separated and I walked home alone. That walk is always the loneliest. It gives me a lot of time to think and thinking isn't the best thing for me; I tend to over think things and it just makes me sad. But I'm glad we did get to hang out. Next Saturday, Chung and I plan on going to the movies. I chose New Year's Eve randomly because it has a lot of A-list stars so hopefully, it won't be bad.

I recently got into Hot Chelle Rae. It was really fast too. What happened was I was watching this Ellen (Degeneres) clip with these two little girls at the AMA, interviewing artists and I saw Hot Chelle Rae. Actually, I just noticed Ryan but the others were there. Then I found out the band's name and that's how I got into them. Their music is good. Nowadays, I don't listen to American music...actually, I haven't listened to it for years. I still like Simple Plan and AAR. Oh and Linkin Park. How can I forget them? =P But I listened to HCR and I loved their songs right away. The lyrics are 대박! But my favorite song is "I Like to Dance". It's a really fun song. =) So yeah. I get into bands because I see some cute guy and then I end up really liking their songs.

Tomorrow, Vicki won't be here and I'm...okay with that. I think Greg may be there. I wouldn't know. I realized that Greg doesn't have...motivation. Or is it ambition? Or is it both? I like guys who have ambition, not just trying to live. Right now, I'm determined to go back to school and get my Master's and move on from there. So although it may seem like I don't have any, I do have some ambition. Because of that, my feelings for Greg are just...poof! He's still good-looking but the person himself is what I look at the most. He's just living life and not for something so it takes all the attraction away.

Then again, I can't say something like that and feel better about myself. I don't feel good about myself and I'm not better than everyone. Still, I'm human and I have things I look for in a guy. 

Oh yeah. I was thinking about writing a story again. Honestly, I always start one and NEVER finish it because I always have the beginning and end but never the middle. So the writing process always comes to a halt prematurely because of my lack of ideas. That's probably what's gonna happen this time too but I have an idea and I need to express it somewhere.

Ah. Before I leave, the entry title refers to my current situation. My apartment (and I'm pretty sure it's my whole building) doesn't have hot water. This is the 3rd time in a short span of time. I think it's probably 2 months or less. But today, there has been no hot water the WHOLE day. This isn't the first time of course but it hasn't been happening this frequently. There's no notice too. So my whole day today has been WTF?! I'm about to explode in anger. I mean, sure we don't pay a lot in rent but that mean we shouldn't have hot water? To NYCHA: FUCK YOU! That's how pissed off I am. I really have been doing my best to not curse but it only happens when I'm really mad...and I'm pretty mad right now. I need to shower because I have work tomorrow! T_T Fucking people...

Ah, that gives me more reason to hate people. I really have a low opinion of people. Totally off topic but I have to say it. Every day for work, I work on Caisis and do all my data entry there. I'm not the only person to use it. There are other people who use it and the ones that work on the same patients as I do are IDIOTS. It clearly says "Date of Report" and we get reports that have that date. But what do those idiots put in? The date of the procedure! Are they blind or do they not know how to read? It has to be one of them because they NEVER put in the actual date of report even though it clearly says date of report! Yeah, I may be anal about these things but it's better to be that than a careless bitch who complains about the work I do. I mean, who is she/he to say I don't write in something when they enter wrong info in themselves? UGH!!!!

So I will return to work tomorrow and hopefully get more work done or else Kevin (my sv) will say something about that. >.> Joy....